NOVEMBER 2025

November 7th
New things...

Its great working around people that share your values. I wasted so much time before, my old work filled with people who essentially valued nothing but their own desires of the flesh. My mind was constantly so surrounded by the horrible things in these peoples minds. It is really hard not to have immense regret for all the time I wasted trying to get into plumbing and it not working out. Its like a mental battle, one side is arguing that I had to go through all these things in order to get to this place, school and working other jobs and that this was God's will, so why argue? The other half of me is just being silly and comparing my life to everyone else's. I'm viewing career choices as a lifetime commitment rather than something that just presents itself to you that you pursue for as long as God wants you to. I keep trying to plan, and God keeps laughing in my face and taking it from me, as He should.

I tried to make a Facebook account the other day so I can browse marketplace and I was so shocked of how obvious they are being with their intense violations of privacy. They requested that I literally take a video of myself moving my head at different angles to prove I am a real person. I was so pissed when I first saw that. I am not just going to put my facial biometrics in their greedy artificial system where it will be stored for eons. Just because they ask you to, what a pathetic joke. Browsing facebooks website always feels very sketchy, like they have such an advanced ai system that can figure out everything about you with a few stupid little taps. If social media websites begin to require proof of id or videos of my face then bye bye to that. After cooling down I tried doing the video thing in very low lighting where you can barely see my face. The point of the video is to prove you are a real person, or so they try to tell you. What they are really trying to do is collect as much personal information as they can. The video had to go through an approval process and after I finished of and I checked back in an hour and my account was permanently deactivated. My video was obviously real, it wasn't an AI that made the account and they could tell that from the obviously real video that I submitted. What garbage. I need to figure out how to bypass that, maybe get some random person to be the video. I really don't know, all I know is that I hate Facebook. I should make an article or something, I tell ya.

I like going to the mall, its fun seeing people from around your city that you knew years ago. I went the other day to do some wedding stuff and saw like 5 people that I knew from school, my retirement home job and my new welding job! It was a crazy hall of obscurity from my past lives. We went to the back of this stupid store called Spencers, it was a mega dumb experience, it was filled with all this degenerate garbage. My friend pointed out how strange it was that you'd have this large display of disgusting alien sex toys and then to the right you'd have all this zen spiritual stuff like incense and little buddha statues. What an inconsistent worldview naturally resorts from people who reject God and live soaked in the world, seeking to accomplish all their most fleshly desires and if they are spiritual, thinking their 'good' works get them anywhere. It's so backwards, what they see as morally good, we see as horrible and visc versa.

Been starting to go to the gym too with my one friend, just once a week as his gym membership allows for one guest a week. Been doing alot of back stuff I'm pretty sure, its a lot more complicated than it seems. Hope to get a membership eventually and go enough to counteract the strain that is put on tha bodee from working in the trades. My collar is blue, but my neck is red...

November 1st
New Career...

What a week. Started my new job welding. Been learning how to make augers. Its been a lot of fun, and I'm eager to learn all these new things for my career, not so excited to buy a whole new set of tools when I already bought some for plumbing that aren't very helpful. Away with plumbing, for now...

Everyday it has been an hour to two hours in the morning of orientation on the computer which has consisted of modules that are easy to manipulate to get the right answer and cheesy safety videos which were fun to watch. Imagine if your full time job consisted of watching safety videos, it sounds epic but probably mega sucks. Just living inside this perfectly clean work environment set where things go wrong then right again.

The rest of the day, I have been learning how to mig weld which is very easy and learning everything about how to build augers and all the components that work with it. This company is very large and seem to just give out apprenticeships after my probation. I hope I can work up in this company and eventually move to other departments in this company that weld different things with aluminum. On my fourth day they pretty much have me on my own building augers. Its a lot of fun. I grab my flighting, put my pipe through it, tack it, stretch it, tack it, weld it, drill holes in the ends for the bearing and do other little things between that.

Its not as much of a diverse job in terms of what I am doing but people fail to realize that there are very little amounts of jobs that are so unique that you are doing extremely different things everyday. With doing similar things everyday, you can master it and perfect all your knowledge in it which I am excited to do with welding. Might as well be academic for it if I am spending all day, everyday invested in it. I really despise it when people don't take their full time jobs seriously. Unless they are planning on going to another job, it seems like a massive waste of time to be working a job full time and not being passionate about what you are doing and its impact on the world. Even if its not very much and even if you are stuck at the job (for the long run), still find passion in the knowledge and skill you've gained starting the job. I haven't learned much from the people I used to watch when I was an edgy teenager, but this Sam Hyde video(edgy alert) is great for illustrating my point. Get a skill and appreciate the fact that you progressed towards something and got good at it. Celebrating victories like that makes life seem a whole lot less gloom (praising God too.)

OCTOBER 2025

October 27th
Plumbing Finale

This week was my final week of plumbing. I thought it would feel more surreal, but it didn't really. It felt more surreal when another was leaving a few weeks ago. I am very glad I am out of there and I will miss a lot of the people, but its just not the right job for me at this time. I've wasted two years messing around, thinking I'm so smart, but really I've been very stupid and always so full of sin, always.

I was core drilling all week so I would just sit there counting down the hours until I can leave the place, listening to History102 or Revealed Apologetics. I need to figure out what to do with all my free time. I get so unmotivated to write which is bad but I also feel so much of a push to always be creating something rather than just relaxing. What is wrong with just reading? I don't have to be creating a masterpiece all the time, I am not even capable of that.

I am a pretty generic person, its fair to say that I won't be remembered for much of my creations, there's people that are a lot smarter and a lot better at proof reading their work before sending it off. I just send dat shiz off, barely even read it most of the time. I need to give more to God, I will never be capable of giving enough but I could give Him more and I'm sorry for that.

I reset my phone this week as a sort of partition between my transition of jobs, I have a pixel with graphene OS and I am finally finding all the perfect apps for everything I need. I have been thinking a lot about piracy or downloading content on the internet and whether it is sinful or not or if there is situations where to regard it as sinful would be sort of silly and legalistic (reaching). I hope to write an article on my phone setup and write about piracy or using the internet to consume copyrighted content that people chose to share.

I feel sort of lost on this weekend. I am technically unemployed until I start my new job on Monday. Its weird being in between things, but its always good to ground your values in the standard, the God, so that in those intermissions of life, you know what you were made for. On Saturday I worked 3 hours in the morning and then went to see monster trucks for my friends birthday. It felt pretty childish but I never did it before so I guess its something to cross off the bucket list (should have done it as a child though, not as an adult).

It was pretty funny, they went around jumping and smashing into cars and after the halfway break, these two really weird looking cars with big tires slowly whired in and then hydrolically expanded upwards (very slowly) like transformers, it was crazy. They then had a back and forth hero and villain dialogue and started firing fireworks at eachother with rigged explosions in their bodies that blew parts of them off. The good guy won and they slowly drove off and the show was back on. They had these bump ramps that they would do tricks off, the three normie monster trucks wouldn't do anything special but just jump with them but the one cool guy used it to roll on his front tires and balance on them for a few seconds (that was probably the coolest part of the whole show). That same guy did a bunch of other cool stuff and was clearly better, one of the normie monster trucks stopped working halfway through the show which was funnily awkward for the announcer. It didn't feel that cool when I was there but reflecting on it now, it was a pretty cool thing to see, its hard to imagine how much work goes into such a impractically large vehicle.

After we did we drove to walmart, got some snacks. It started to rain while the sun was still out so everything turned orange and there was a mega double rainbow that was mega awesome. We then went and picked up pizza, and went to the beer store so my friend could return all his empties so we could buy like a 40 pack of busch. When we were returning the empties, there was this small homeless man who had a shpping cart filled with beer bottles and when he was taking the last bottle out, he dropped a jar of weed in his backpack and it smashed all over the floor. He then pulled a dyson vacuum out of his cart and began to rapidly vacuum all of the weed and glass fragments off the floor, it was kinda crazy, poor guy, collecting the junk of peoples bad habits to feed his own bad habits.

We then went back to my friends house where we played a lot of Rocket League, talked, watched youtube, played VR and rattled the bog. Sunday was very relaxing, as it always is, though I could not sleep on sunday night out of anticipation of starting my new job. God thank you, I am sorry, I am dumb.

October 14th
God is good (all the time), & All the time (God is good)

God is good, like good is defined by God and only God. On friday I had my interview, I went to a business owned by people from my churches and got a tour, if I got hired there I would be figuring out all the wiring and hydrolics for different truck bodies. I didn't know very much and felt discouraged because after, I had an interview with another company owned by church people, they are much larger than the other company, have been around longer and are the most openly christian company I have ever seen. It was such a surprise to see that and was a contributing factor as to why I really wanted to work there. I would be applying to a welding job and hopefully start my apprenticeship. The interview went very well and I was extremely honest about my faith which was crazy as a conversation topic at a job interview, I am so blessed. Then God being so amazing, when I was discouraged, allowed me to get this job at the interview, meaning I could give a two week notice to this sketchy plumbing company and begin serving something I actually respect.

God is so great for giving me this, they pay more than what I currently make, I work more hours and it is much closer to my house which is amazing. In the winter, I get to work inside and go to the same site everyday and I will be able to learn so much through this. I am so excited to work as hard as possible for a company that has the same values as me. These other companies I worked at, working hard felt like I was being taken advantage of in a way because I could not have a proper grasp of what the company stood for (besides making money) and the signs only pointed to bad things. With this company, it will be very good, I will work as hard as I can.

I had a good thanksgiving weekend. Ate lots of food at the two thanksgiving dinners I went to, one with my family and one with my fiancee's family. It was such a relaxing weekend, especially with the exciting news of getting a new job. I am so excited to settle in a job and not always be on the edge of my seat craving for something better, I am happy where I am. I don't know what is in store for the future, all I know is that I need to put more trust in God and give it all to Him.

Butternut squash, brussel sprouts, cranberry sauce and ham are some of the best foods I had this weekend, what a great treat. Thanksgiving is always good, but many people have nothing to be thankful to, besides themselves and their fictional 'free will' that brought them there, God gave everything, give honor to the One who deserves it.

Gave my two weeks notice today, they were sad and said I was a good worker, they even tried to get me to stay by offering a one or two dollar raise, but I insisted. I am so excited and ready to give my all to a company that I know will actually care for me and is giving me an opportunity that they have to sacrifice something for (teaching me welding stuff from scratch). I'll probably just be core drilling until I leave next friday, I will just put my earbud in one ear and my ear plug in the other and just listen to people talk all day (like this). God help me, I am unable to do good.

October 10th
The Crossroads Are Here...

I'm at The Crossroads now. I've realized I have sort of hyper fixated on becoming a plumber in such an uncertain time for a trade such as that. There was never a time when I was growing up where I had passionate dreams about being a plumber, I did a pre-apprenticeship college program knowing little about the trade and fortunately liked the trade a lot. In my mind I had this idea rooted in humility that I should just choose a career and faithfully stick with it as most men were forced to do throughout history. What I failed to realize in all this is that though these trades are in desperate need of more journeymen, new people are not needed at all and not wanted. I got very passionate and worked very hard in both my gas course and my program, hoping that would help me land a job quicker and start earning hours. Ultimately, I wanted to rush into a high paying job as quick as possible so I can start supporting other people.

Right after my classes finished up, I was able to quickly find a plumbing labourer job off of indeed after handing out 30 resumes to every plumbing company I could find and started to be able to get actual plumbing experience. After a few months, I quickly found out that this company I was at was engaged in pretty sketchy practises, they would cheat rough in tests to pass inspection, hired immature and incompetent people and didn't even have enough journeymen for the amount of apprentices they had. I felt stuck and realized I was working way too hard at a job that was always a dead end. I began searching again and asked people at my church if they knew anyone, the one guy said there were hiring at this truck body fabrication company for welding, filled with other people in the church community (compared to the secular nightmare of the construction site I was always at) but I was so strongly set on plumbing, fearing that if I did shift my focus, all that schooling was a waste of time and it would be an immature thing.

I then found this other plumber through my side job as a server and my excitement went back up. He had a very small company and he said that when I switched over, he would sign me up as an apprentice right away. I really enjoyed working with him on Fridays and would go to my dead end job every other week day thinking "just a few more weeks, then his big jobs will start and I can leave this place". When the time came, people began cancelling jobs or having difficulties with permits. Its a very difficult time and people are hesitant to start building stuff. Few more weeks went by and I slowly began to see all the red flags with going to this other plumber and with plumbing in general. If I did eventually switch to this other guy, even if he had big jobs lined up, what about next year? I would be out of work. Its also such a small company that he would have to pay me less as an apprentice than what I make as a labourer now and I would have no benefits. Its simply not enough security for this time of my life.

I've also realized that I've been so set and loyal to a trade that simply doesn't need me, I'd be putting my life and my money below this trade that I randomly selected. God is possibly trying to tell me that this is not his will. Its almost impossible to find anything in plumbing unless you are in the right place at the right time or knowing the right person. I have been making such an idol out of being a plumber that I am actually wasting time when opportunities in other potential careers are presenting themselves to me, because in my mind I have to be this perfect mature person who always makes the right decisions even from a young age so when if I happen to speak of my life to others, it doesn't seem like I'm just wandering around.

I began to see that I shouldn't make an idol out of commitment to a career but only commitment to God. On sunday I was telling people this, and the same guy who offered told me about a welding job said it again, he was telling about his life and it really sounded a lot like mine. He did a college program for carpentry and then dropped out halfway through because he didn't really need to do the program, found another job and then eventually got a job as a salesman at the truck body place. He didn't know much as a young man, all he knew is that he wanted to get married, which exactly put into words what I felt as well, though never articulated it. Then another guy came up and said his company is hiring welders as well, they make agricultural equipment which is very cool. This week I applied to both of these jobs and have an interview at the agriculture place, they are a christian company as well which I really like and they are much closer of a drive. I really hope this works out and I can learn lots and build my way up in this company over a while.

I had to give my references for this job and my two bosses I put down have been texting and calling me back to tell me that they gave great references. It feels like one big conclusion (hopefully it is). My retirement home boss texted me and I got a call from my old sandblasting boss who I haven't talked to in 6 months, that call really felt like a movie finale. He was on vacation in europe when he called me and said he is retiring soon and my old coworker who had diabetes had recently lost his leg because of that and was retired because of that. It's a very big picture scary feeling when people move, or owners change and places sell, when people quit. If I get this job, I will even feel sad leaving the people at my current job, it is a scary feeling when you are talking to someone knowing that it might be the last time you ever see them.

October 5th
The Crossroads Are Coming...

Went to an actual Christian wedding a few weeks ago. It made marriage actually feel like something rather than the mindless and godless union of two people who are convienient to eachother for the sake of reproducing and a financial union. It was very solemn and made it feel actually ordained by God as this upheld serious lifelong commitment that should be held. We then went to the dinner afterwards at a barn farm sort of reception and it was a lot of fun. All the weddings I have been to before have felt very much like a big party rather than a celebration of the actual event. This wedding, at the reception, there was many speeches and little games that the family played in front of everyone that made it feel very family oriented. In the end, there was only about an hour of dancing at the end of the night while the rest of it was very centred around the reason we were there. Parents and friends and siblings giving speeches of all emotions. The father of the groom revealed a rare framed photo to them as a gift when they were both in the second grade, cuddling on the couch together. This couple have known eachother their whole lives and are getting married at a very young age for todays standard (as am I). It was so surreal and amazing to see two become one. We definitely are taking much influence from their wedding and are even more excited to live our lives together. God help us.

Got rid of youtube off my phone completely this week. I used this fork app called NewPipe which is honestly one of the best apps I have ever used, I will write about all my favourite apps in detail later. Before I would download multiple videos a day and watch them on my breaks at work, leaving time for prayer after when I could just cut it out completely and have more time to think and write for this website (main reason). I would binge A Messenger Of Truth, Abolishionists Rising, Roger Wakefield, Chilling Scares and a bunch more (GOATs). Its tricky because most of these youtubers are educational and good to watch but most of the time its just bloat. And its not very motivating watching videos about plumbing when I am not even sure if I am going to pursue plumbing in the long term (don't get into the trades unless your dad owns a successful plumbing business or something).

Stop caring about money, stop caring about your career, stop caring about whether you have children or not or if you are buying a home. Just simply try and live and God will provide. Try to do what you can and that will be what it is, don't stress beyond that. The only thing we need to worry about is whether God's will is being done, and it is, so no stress. Mega win.

I did this big plumbing job with an apprentice, it took like a week. We ran these two 4" rainwater leaders in this really tricky spot and then combined them to make a 6" run along the floor and then into the main which is 8" I believe. A pretty insane run to do that came with a lot of challenges but we figured out and I think it looks great.

SEPTEMBER 2025

September 20th, 2025
Plumbing Finisher

This week has been pretty fun. I've been doing a lot of finishing which I've never really had the chance to do by myself at this job. I've installed whole kitchen sinks, kitchen faucets, bathroom faucets, and even dishwashers. It can feel repetitive but its also so awesome to be able to install things that people depend on so much everyday over and over again, getting better and better each time. It's very simple work, but to be able to master these things and know the essential design and parts that make up these fixtures regardless of the manufacturer is awesome.


Kitchen faucets are very easy and I've learned to do them fast. The Moen ones I'm installing mount directly into the sink without a deck plate, there's just this little deck gasket that has to be properly aligned with ridges on the interior of the faucet's body, but this can be done fairly easy even if it takes a few tries, you just have to hold the faucet with one and and tighten with the other underneath. Ive also been tightening the aerator as it comes with both a nut tightener for both a kitchen and a bathroom faucet and an aerator tightener. I also try to force the supply lines up as much as possible behind the sink so it looks cleaner. At the end I always give a little stress test to the faucet to make sure it doesn't wobble at all, make it straight and make sure that gasket is properly around and nothing is misaligned.

I have also learned to drop in kitchen sinks which we do not have to caulk as they come with a gasket that surround the underside of the edges of the sink that acts as a seal. Put the screws on, drop it in, tighten under the sink slightly so when it is adjusted, it will stay in that spot, make sure the distance between the end of the sink and the edge of the countertop is the same all the way through and then tighten against so it is snug. It was funny because we are so rushed because they want people living in the building soon that the countertop people supposedly got different drawings than us, meaning the partition wall for the drawers below and to the sides of the sink fell right where the hole for the sink was, meaning you can't even drop in a sink. Some other units, they just drilled the hole for the faucet completely wrong.

Lav faucets (for bathroom) are pretty similar. We just have a deck plate that goes under the faucet, and everything else is practically the same, though a bit harder to position. They also come with these pop-up drain assemblies taht are very easy to put together but hard to tighten sufficiently enough that a leak may not find its way through the gaskets. Lavatory faucets are harder to tighten because the diameter of the bolt that the tightening nut threads on to is much smaller than what is threaded on to for the kitchen sinks. I was also told to use pipe dope on the gasket of the drain assembly below the sink which I thought was strange but I guess it makes sense as it is meant to be a sealant.

Did dishwashers too which was fun to figure out and learn to be able to identify all the materials needed to hook one up. Under the kitchen sinks, the hot water line tees off under the faucet supply lines and then continues on towards another R19 which is for the dishwasher. We hook up a long 3/8" braided supply hose that runs through a hole and connects to a brass dishwasher elbow that connects to plastic threads on the dishwasher. From the dishwasher, the drain hose is clamped onto the bottom of the dishwasher and is run through a hole high up that acts as an airbreak so if the sink did clog and the drainage was filled with waste, it would not enter the dishwasher through that. It then connects to a dishwasher wye below that sink and it tightened with a gear clamp. I then connect the power and shove the dishwasher in with the insulation covering it. For some reason we don't have to secure or mount them, I am guessing someone else does that. I then turn it on, let some water run in it and then drain it to see that there is no leaks underneath the dishwasher or on the dishwasher wye. One of the guys I was working with doing this as well was not paying attention and cross threaded the dishwasher 90 onto the dishwasher's plastic threads which caused it to spray out when he turned the R19, something to watch out for. A lot of fun.

September 16th, 2025
Charlie Kirk

Cray Zee times. Last week I spent the whole time moving material around by myself underground. The one day there I was by myself the whole day doing mind numbing work and at the end of the day when everyone meets up, I start hearing about Charlie Kirk and one guy shows me a video on his phone of Kirk getting assassinated. This same day, september 10th, a school shooting also happened, some revolt in Nepal, broken NATO agreements in Poland or something and a Ukrainian refugee was stabbed on a train. Such an insane day, with Charlie Kirk's death standing out as the biggest. In that moment I felt a lack of presentism in my body as the current mindsets of people and cultures could be seen so much easier as something that will end up in a history book one day, something that people study because they don't understand, yet we do now. Finding out the weird Discord furry things engraved into the bullet casings by the shooter, Tyler Robinson, is so strange to see. One day, all this furry stuff, bizarre things on the internet that people idolize both inside and outside a political context, won't just be these new modern things that weren't there before, one day it will be like 'wow, that was 50 years ago (lord willing) and here we are now'.

I didn't follow him much, I know he was a christian and that he always made Christ the basis for all his opinions, praise be to God for that. I am not a very political person, I was radically political in high school but since becoming a christian by God's grace, I don't want to idolize being political but made God the origin for all my thoughts, regardless of what I think. Every person I talked to about his death, they all said a very similar thing, that they didn't agree with what of what he had to say but he didn't deserve to die. I heard about so many people, right wing people, other christian, in great mourning, praying for him. My question is, why focus on this person's one death, people were dying for these same reasons as before and will continue to die after. Developing humans are part of a daily genocide every day in this culture yet we don't cry for their death, but focus on this one man though all were made in the image of God? We should only have hope, that if he was truly what he claimed to be, then he will not die forever but live again, as well as everyone else that God pours his spirit onto.

The video is so surreal to watch, I remember seeing stupid little scrolley shorts clips of him talking about whatever political thing, imagine that same context but his life ending. You saw these things on Instagram very easily, and a lot of the comments were people in great celebration, saying he deserved it, saying he was asking for it in the context of what he was arguing, saying all sorts of things. People like to think that we are in this modern world with moral people and that the past, filled with images of arogant and dumb townspeople yelling and laughing at the suffering and deaths of others, but we don't change, in the right context we all do the exact same thing, even if it may be just in our mind. In the core of our hearts, we are no different than those mocking and laughing at the suffering of our Lord in His final moments before His death and resurrection.

Right wing people do it to left wing people, left wing people do it to right wing people. We take little situations like Charlie Kirk getting shot, George Floyd getting killed, etc., and turn it into these massive things under the presupposition that all people who label themselves on a particular side are exactly like the people in the wrong in whatever recorded situation they are referring to. Humanity does a great job of turning death into death into death (physically and mentally). I really don't want people to see me for any particular believe that I have except the faith in God that was implanted into me. Without this faith, without God, there's nothing wrong with rape, abortion, violence, bodily degredations, hedonism, selfishness. There would be no justice, not in the sense that there is a lack of it, but that it or anything at all has no existing concept. This is what people do not understand and the only reason I understand it is because of God.

Writing little blogs is much more managable to me than writing longer works. I apologize for the lack of diversity but I would rather be adding only blogs than not adding anything at all. Maybe I should be trying harder to add different things. I really want to write stories but in the brief moments I have each day to type things, I'd find it hard to properly format and communicate longer forms of content. I just want a plumbing apprenticeship, a job with security that I know i'll stay at. I can't wait to be married. God help us all.

September 4th, 2025

I've been very occupied with work and several other things. I will be wed in a few months and we have to plan these things out. Website might be slowing down a bit but I'll try to find time. Been grinding at work too, this job I'll probably leave soon. It makes it go by faster and its a great life advice to always do everything 100%

On the Friday I finished work early and went to donate blood for the first time, it was a quite fulfilling experience and I hope to be part of registries where you can donate stuff of yours to people. I got there and had to answer like 60 questions about my health and then laid down on a fancy dentist like chair and got like half a liter drained out of me.

Went to someones bachelor party on the weekend, at their newly purchased house. They all have a very Christian upbringing which makes it very unusual to see all these people I don't know that well in that context. Stayed up very late, it was like 3 am and we were sitting around talking, snacking on some party mix and spilled the whole thing on the floor. and kept eating it. We had to wake up early the next day to go golfing for like 10.

Before that we went to Timmies and I got a BLT of some kind which was pretty good, I usually never get fast food but when I do, I appreciate it. Its hard to imagine eating this everyday though, its a lot of money going to waste. There's a guy at my work that consistently spends like $40 a day going to Tim Hortons to get an ice coffee and a small meal twice a day. That's like a quarter of your income dedicated to breakfast and lunch.

It was the first time I ever went golfing, I enjoyed it a lot more than I thought I would. I didn't like the idea of it, it feels like such an obnoxious luxury to play such a little sport that takes up so much land. I really enjoyed it though, its such an emotional roller coaster in a serene environment. One second you are full of anger, aggressively driving a golf cart around, and the next you are full of joy from a good hit.

I started doing really good for the first time ever playing golf, then got worse and worse as we went through it. It took 6 hours to play 18 holes, and I didn't bring a hat. Kept having fun the whole time, always on the edge of hitting a good shot and getting dopamine from it. We were running out of balls as we were shooting many into random ponds and way off into the bushes, I was also finding fun in picking up random balls along the way, there was one section of bush that my ball went into where I came out with 15 balls, scooped them up in my shirt and felt mega blessed.

The course was about par 80 I believe and we got like 110 or something (lol). Following that full day after a full night, we then went to McDonalds and I treated myself to a Big Mac. I loaded that baby with like 6 ketchup packets and enjoyed the messy meal. Again a waste of money, but what better time to eat McDonalds than in this occasion. Not in the middle of a work day where the food will only make it harder.

AUGUST 2025

August 28th, 2025

On the weekend we had a fun church event with everyone which was awesome. Spent so much time just talking with people. The property we do these things on which is at this guys house is amazing. Big house surrounded by hilly fields and a pond. Ate lots of corn, hot dogs and burgers.

Guess what. Things change again, another month before I can become an apprentice and actually work towards something that matters and is fruitful for my future. I know all is vanity anyways, but when you have to work hard in a job you won't be at for much longer, it is a weird feeling. I guess I could think of it in the way that in case this other incoming job does not work out, I will be in good standing at this other job.

On Friday I had to come in to this construction job, helping with storm drainage pipes that barely see any water, under a brick walkway. The ministry also came in, which meant I couldn't actually touch any pipes, just do labour stuff. Its such a scam, we are supposed to come apprentices after 3 months but no place does this except unionized companies.

After I helped the other plumber guy again. We were in a guys basement replacing his old cast iron building drain with ABS. We also installed a floor drain that had to be a certain distance from the building drain to prevent a backflow of sewage from coming up through the floor drain. I was using the chipping gun and went through some old clay pipe as well. I was very scared when I hit that but it was old and not being used anymore so its all good.

After that we got an emergency service call to a retirement home where this old lady's toilet wasn't flushing so we used a closet auger and its worked easily. After that we ended up at this guys house where I changed a tub spout and built an easy little p-trap assembly for a bathroom lav, struggling more than I thought. I just want to get as much hands on experience doing basic things like finishing and connecting pipe so I can get faster and more capable of solving problems involving these finishing things.

August 21st, 2025

Went fishing again. Didn't catch anything, I actually lost two lures because the water we were casting in was so shallow and I was just casting and then reeling. I am very bad at fishing, if I get a bite, I always have the absolute worst timing and since I've gotten into fishing again, I have not caught a single fish. My dad got a cheap whopper plopper that didn't work, doesn't make any bubbles. We caught an old hat yesterday, all the while people fishing around us are catching stuff. I'm just going to keep going at it while the weather is good this year, and if I do eventually catch one, it will be the best feeling.

When I am working, I feel like I waste too much brainpower thinking about the passage of time and when I'll be done, but this only sets me up for failure as the time passes slower when you look at the clock every 5 minutes. This is a downside for wearing a watch all the time, which I do now. As long as I don't look at my wrist and try to focus on what I am doing, the day will go by quicker. We always complain about life being so short, yet we crave every working day we have to be over as soon as possible. Maybe we should just not think about the passage of time at all, always waiting for things and simply love day by day. Biblically, this makes mega sense since today is enough trouble for itself.

I've realized that I'm very conflicted on what I want to do in the future. I'll be starting my plumbing apprenticeship soon and was planning to move to Alberta in a few years. I've learned that to transfer apprenticeship hours from one province to another is very difficult, and the timeline I was planning to move was in about three years, probably in the middle of my apprenticeship. That means I have two options, either I move in like the next year, just in the beginning of my apprenticeship, or I wait until after my apprenticeship which is likely to be around 5 years. The problem with the one option is that would be throwing us in a whole new situation fast and the problem with the other is that that is a long time before we are able to settle down. I guess I could try moving mid apprenticeship but I would greatly risk losing hours or whole school terms if I did move.

I don't know what to do. I think I'm just going to get my apprenticeship and make the decision when the time comes. The whole system is set up against you if you actually want to make long term commitments and care about anything at all, thats how it feels at least.

August 14th, 2025

It'll be about another month before I switch to my other job. There's been delays with things and it has pushed everything back. Until then I am just going to take it relatively easy for most of the week and try hard on Friday at my other job.

Last friday was great, we went to different places. Reran a hose bib line in a quadplex because they connected an outdoor hosebib line after one of the sub meters, meaning one of the tenants was getting charged for everyone's usage of the hosebib. This is a problem because their lawn was flourishing because it was well watered. We reran it before any sub meters but after the main water meter, added a ball valve to isolate it and a tee with an R-19 shutoff valve downstream of that. This let's people drain the system in the winter easily to prevent anything from freezing.

I was also shown how to replace an old water softener which was really fun and informative. It was half inch copper lines that had to be cut, adapted to PEX and upsized to 3/4". It was a pretty simple process overall but felt pretty fulfilling too.

After that we went to a triplex where I was shown how to install a shower drain which was in a basement, meaning we used a different type that merely secured itself to the tailpiece with compression and a gasket. We did this because if it was a glued joint and there was problems down the road, all the concrete would have to be chipped up as there would not be enough pipe to work with. I also learned that a showers drainage pipe is minimum 1 1/2" but really should be 2", especially if it is in the concrete and its trap and trap arm are buried under concrete, just to ensure no blockages down the road.

This company I'm at from Monday to Thursday is so strange. I'd have to literally deny my faith and suck up to my boss so much if I want to get anywhere, my boss actually dislikes me because of this and shows the maturity of a teenager in expressing it, I will not buckle. They got me off the drill and now I'm working for a journeyman, running random drain lines for a pool I believe. I'm sort of conflicted, when I was on the drill, I was very relaxed and could just be left alone and listen to podcasts all day but, so my lazy side just wants to continue drilling, the other people at this job are so hard to be around (very degenerate). There's another side of me that sees this as good as I can learn things now and I don't have to worry about messing up and loosing opportunities as I'll only be at this job for another month. I am pretty bad at this trade and really want to learn things, but any chance this company gives you to do more, its almost like you have to act like you know how to do everything and know everything. I learn much better in an environment where I don't feel like people are plotting against me and waiting for me to mess up, it feels like such a power struggle.

I've just been helping with drains for this week, the picture below shows these two vents for 2 hub drains connecting to the venting system for all this pool stuff, I did dat little inch and a half part.

August 1st, 2025

Another funny Theo Von podcast, it's great when he is with Bobby Lee

Onda Longe Weekend now. I'm mega sad. Around a year ago, I wrote half of a book I was working on. It was the most commitment I've ever put into anything I have written. It was about this guy that gave up his whole life to be homeless to find meaning. I wrote so much for it. I stopped writing it when I was starting school and would come back to it later so lately I have been searching for that file. It was on a USB I believe, I kept searching everywhere, the trash folders on all my devices and looked in these places multiple times and even then, nothing. There's no trace of it at all, as if it never existed. It might be somewhere in some completely random place on some random hard drive, but I really don't think so.

It feels so futile, so much vanity. I remember hearing a teaching series from RC Sproul on the book of Ecclesiastes, he told a story about a time he was writing on the computer and lost 20 minutes of work because of a crash. Instead of spending another 20 minutes rewriting this, he spent 3 hours researching into how to get these lost files back. We always want to feel as if we are working towards something, that its not just one big waste. The reality is that all this crap we do on this earth in its state means absolutely nothing when compared to complete reality and time. I want to get back into writing fiction, these blogs are nice as they are very short form and it is something I can do on little breaks throughout the week.

I really like this green amazon Casio watch my brother gave me. Technically its not that same one, he gave me this watch that was so helpful and then one day just disappeared, which is very frustrating as I really never lose anything and keep good track of things. He gave to me in Alberta like a month ago and I lost it after such a short time. I bought the same one since then and have had the best watch experience with it. Over the years, I would have so many analog wristwatches that were either a little too big, too small, they kept breaking, they had weird dead batteries, I even tried an old metal digital watch but that even managed to stop working and the battery was very difficult to change. My new watch has a stopwatch, keeps track of the date and has an alarm on it, its sick. I think that analog womens watches are better, again from my limited experience. I bought a $5 vintage little wristwatch for my girl and that has lasted her about two years and I have been able to change the battery on it twice, all by myself. The worst is when a watch is so impractical with a dead battery that you feel like you are breaking it just trying to change the battery. Watches should be designed so that someone with rudimentary watch knowledge can change the battery easily, why do I have to bring it to a jewellery person?

I'll hopefully be getting a fishing license soon, I'd like to get into fishing and do it a lot more. I did it with my friends a few weeks ago, it was the most relaxing thing to do. It forces people in an isolated environment to just talk rather than try to distract themselves with a Roku TV with Youtube on it. My one friend got his fishing line stuck in the tree like three times and had this bait that dragged on the bottom of the lake, in one of his casts, he managed to snag a snapping turtles arm! we brought him to shore and tried to throw a towel over him to get this hook off while holding him down so he doesn't bite a finger off, but he broke the line. Bro was just chillin' then was dragged up and now has to live the rest of his life with a hook stuck to him, mega sad (mega sad). My other friend also had these whopper plopper baits that run across the surface of the water and plop around and was able to catch a fish that time with it, being the only one who caught a fish, and he said he has caught other ones before with these, cray zee.

JULY 2025

July 29th, 2025
Core Drillin' Ethereal Azz Plain...

Been just coring, all day, everyday, four days a week. I've greatly conditioned myself to be a lot lazier at this job specifically and also have taken this opportunity of lazy work to listen to podcasts and longer commentaries about a bunch of different stuff through my wireless earbuds! I use this ad free and download capable app that uses YouTube called NewPipe to download all sorts of videos in an mp3 form and then use VLC to listen to it all day. I started with some of the more popular Joe Rogan podcasts like the one with Alex Jones and then branched off into Theo Von's podcast (they are both hilarious when together).

I have also been investing time into this Youtuber that my brother really likes called Whatifalthist. He makes a lot of anthropology videos that make you think a lot and has a history podcast that I have invested time into as well. This won't become a lifelong obsession where every time I am doing any sort of work, I'll need something in the background just to manage, but for this dead end job where I stare at a core drill all day that I'll leave in a few weeks, all is good (i dont hear that drill spinnin'!)

This past weekend, I was able to play some basketball at my elementary school with my friends I grew up with, it was a very cool feeling. It feels like a sort of quarter life crisis that just now I am getting into all this appreciation for these outdoor activities that I should have spent my whole childhood doing, but instead was inside on the computer (that darn computer). After all is done, a life's retrospective should be one that at least mostly consisted on contributions to things that actually exist, not virtual indulgences that clump up into one vague experience in my mind now.

At the school, they had a few large rent dumpsters that we just had to take a look inside. One was full of old carpet from my school that I believe I remember, but it was wet and smelt bad. The other dumpster was very cool, it contained many old mop sinks that had these forbidden cast iron s traps with a cleanout (something like this). If I was older and had my own property, I would without a doubt grab one of these and turn it into a cool planter out front or something, or display just the old p trap somewhere.

There's something about ancient and forgotten plumbing that catches my eye. Like seeing old cast iron drainage fittings that look almost cartoonish that were put together with this really bizarre (to me) lead and oakum method. Old plumbing just has this very Dr. Suess counterproductiveness to it.

July 28th, 2025
Tiny ghetoo-as plumbin' projecta..

This past week I redid a p trap under an unused sink in my house. A while ago, that sink was running very ineffectively, so we got a plumber to come in, cut out the p trap and snake the drain. We knew him personally so when he was done, he was going to come back another and do the p trap. Fast forward about a year later and we never got the chance for him to come back, and I am into plumbing now. I look under the sink and see this. The way this whole extension of my house was set up before we moved here, they never considered venting. I felt the stub out in the wall just 90 down and was surprised at such a system.


I now know that your trap arm can only slope 1 pipe diameter max before it needs venting, or it is an illegal s trap and will be subject to potential siphonage and inefficient drainage. I am confused as to why the plumber didn't initially consider that as the reason why the sink was slow and immediately resorted to having to snake the drain.

What I was left to work with was everything after that 90 that goes up after that cleanout wye, as I would have very little to work with if I did cut that and didn't want to spend more money on fittings. I went to home depot and bought a small amount of pipe, 2 couplings, a sanitary ty, a cheap air admittance valve, a 90, solvent cement and thread tape. I decided to reuse the old p trap because I'm cheap.

I kinda over thought a lot of things when I was building this and felt like I could have done a lot better. I didn't even have a sawzall when doing this so I used a handsaw to cut pipe. When I was putting in the vent, for some reason I levelled it on the top of the pipe rather than on its side or on the ty without the pipe in it and it made the whole thing look unlevel. I also wasted to much time trying to perfectly build from and not to the p trap, which doesn't make a different to a movable and adjustable p trap.

A flaw in my design is that I could have put a larger space between the weir of the trap and the cheater vent, as technically it now works like a crown vent, which is also illegal as crap could get jammed in the vent over time. I believe that the minimum length of a trap arm before venting is two full pipe diameters. I also believe that the trap is supposed to have a cleanout plug on the bottom though it doesn't. I Yearn For The Pipes...

July 22nd, 2025
The return... (sorry for the negligence)

Hey! Its been several weeks. I went on my vacation and found it difficult to get into the routine of writing for the website. Well, here I am. It was an amazing trip and I'll remember it forever. I believe I want to move there now in a few years, it feels newer and cheaper, more opportunity for development and independence from my life in Ontario. I was planning on making a detailed overview of the trip and what I did each day, but ran out of time and motivation as the trip kept going. What I have now is a list of all the things I did each day and hope to use this in the future to make a sort of trip overview and reflection of all I did.

I have just been working and enjoying this hot summer as much as I can, I've gotten into playing some sports such as basketball and soccer and hope to continue this casually while there is no snow.

By the grace of God, I have been put in the right place at the right time with the right connection and will be transitioning to a new plumbing job at a much smaller company and be signed up for an apprenticeship immediately. This should happen in the next month roughly but until them, I'm working at the same place.

After the trip, a heat wave happened for a week, and I began core drilling. They usually put the new guys on this for almost a year and then allow you to actually be a plumber helper for a bit and then finally maybe make you an apprentice. Its way too long for me and for that reason, I have been keeping an eye out for a quicker opportunity to an apprenticeship.

I helped this plumber who is the sole employee of his own company last Friday. I helped him replace a water service line to a house and helped him install a new laundry tray. It was a very fulfilling day and I am so glad I have this now. If I had not been handed this opportunity, I don't know how long I would be rotting away at this corporate commercial company.

This is the plumbing DWV system used at my current job to properly vent and drain many 3 piece bathrooms across multiple stories. It consists of a vent stack, a wet vent and a soil stack.

The vent stack has a wye fitting connection in it facing downwards that 45s down into an Ontario fitting which works as a wet vent. The fitting is a 3" TY with a 2" side inlet for the shower or tub which is a code thing in Ontario (we call it an Ontario fitting). The wet vent downwards then 45s and then connects to the wye fitting of the soil stack. I have been core drilling these holes at my work way up in the tower I'm in.


Here is a recreation of the described system. When I am core drilling, I would drill a 4 1/2" hole for a 3" cast iron stack and a 5" hole for a 4" cast iron stack. These holes are drilled larger to account for the insulation they put on all the piping before it is all covered up.

JUNE 2025

June 11th, 2025
Alberta Incoming...

A few weeks ago, I got a message from my phone provider that they were discontinuing their 3G service in like 2 months. From this, I went to my phone settings and made it so my phone only used LTE which is pretty much 4G. When I tried to call anyone though, my phone would instantly hang up. I then spent a while messing around with settings and realized that my phone was not using this function called Volte to make calls, meaning that I couldn't make called when using LTE. I found out that Pixel phone have this problem when they are shipped to certain countries.

The reddit threads I found about this issue made it seem like a hopeless and unsolvable problem but I eventually found a solution after a few days that didn't involve rooting my phone. You download this app called Shizuki and you use wireless debugging to allow you to use another app to simply turn on Volte for your phone and blam, it worked. It was late at night when I did this and I was so surprised when it actually worked. I hope to write an in depth article about my phone and what apps and OS I think is the best for privacy (graphene os because i have a pixel).

Then, in that same night, I also found a way to block YouTube on my phone in the browser, but not through YouTube music downloaded apps which was surprisingly simple. Using this app called NextDNS, I put m.youtube.com on the denylist but put the youtube music link on the allow list. This makes it so I can't watch YouTube in my browser, but my music app which is called SimpMusic is allowed to use the YouTube music links to access content.

Speaking of YouTube, I never realized how horribly quickly one can fill their YouTube recommendations with such lustful and innapropriate content. I saw this video just recommended to me when I was signed out that should have not been allowed on youtube and then interacting with this in any way fills your recommendations with all this type of stuff. It would be insanely easy for a young child to click on this once and that's all it would take to slowly strip away his innocense and get him addicted to pornography. I had an ad blocker on as well, imagine if I didn't. If you go to any website on the internet and the ad providers want to show you that kind of stuff, the advertising that is allowed. is insane. Again, all it takes is one click. Keep kids off the internet.

Found out something silly at my work yesterday. My company is going to move half of my current crew to a city that is an hour and a half drive away from where I am. I am already a 40 minute drive and I start at 7am and finish at 5:30pm, wake up at 5:30am and go to bed at 10pm. If I was moved to another city, I would either have to move (which I don't want to do) or have to wake up at like 4:30 everyday and get home at like 7, earliest. Not happening, I might have to find a new job soon.

This week we are continuing with testing, same old stuff. Spraying all the DWV PVC with soap and water while the systems are pressurized at 5psi. It has to hold for 15 minutes to pass an inspection, which is quite silly as the inspector usually comes in, glances at the gauge, will maybe chat and stay in the room for a few minutes and that's it. We spray all the piping and if we begin to see bubbles forming at the joints of the fitting, that means it was improperly solvent welded. What we do then is purge the system, then smear solvent cement, let it dry and test again with bubbles to see if its holding. It is so much waiting around for nothing. The days go by super slow.

I only had a three day week this week, as on Thursday morning at like 6, my flight is off to Edmonton to see my brother. It has been such a buildup through the past week. I'm trying not to hate going to work the day before, idolizing leisure and wanting to reject responsibilities. It also feels even more irresponsible that I'm going on this trip while in an unstable job, where I could be moved to London any week now.

I'm going to enjoy it though, not because it is an escape but because it is complementary.

I guess I did so good in school barely studying that they gave me free tools, I got a free Milwaukee impact and drill set for doing so good in plumbing class. I gotta find a new job and will definitely put this mega win on my resume...

June 4th, 2025
The Walmart cages and the vent terminal gun...

Last week we went to several peoples houses from my church in one night. Its an event they do where you go to different houses and have different themed foods throughout the night with different other guests at each house. At the last place (desert), there was someone there whose job was to design the layout of the installation of those Walmart security gates that make it tricky to easily enter and leave a store. I guess these gates save each Walmart location millions of dollars every year as theft is such a normal occurrence for these large stores that they include it as part of their budget. I heard stories about people walking out carrying a full TV, or other things, very obviously stealing and the security there that could stop them simply letting them go on like nothing wrong is happening. The reason they don't do anything is because of how easy it is to sue someone for silly reasons involving what you would think a security guard should be allowed to do, put their hands on people, physically confront them. People will do whatever it takes to turn eyes away from their crime and put it on the one actually trying to stop it.

From that, another guy told a story about how he was buying medicine in a pharmacy and some guy next to him took 6 of the same bottles and just walked out. He told the cashier about what happened and she shrugged it off as if it was nothing, making those situations completely hopeless. The guy then questioned her about why he should even have to pay for his expensive medicine morally while others can just steal these things with no repercussions. There is no justice. To that I say, there is great rejoicing in the kingdom when we suffer for righteousness sake. That's it, that's all.

These gates make it so hard to not look suspicious if you aren't buying anything and are trying to leave. Grocery stores used to be so much more open. I wonder about the potential hazards this could cause in a fire situation, everyone cramming through the self checkouts, in a populated enough location.

This week at work I am helping to test a whole sanitary system made of PVC pipe across 5 floors. A lot of trial and error and messing around. At what point is it time to get serious and give full effort? It feels like such a joke sometimes. I found this funny Aussie video that helps to describe how I feel at work sometimes. whether I like it or even want that or not.

First their was a cracked TY on the end of a trap arm so the apprentice had to cut it out and turn the individual vent into a back vent. Then there was another TY that was welded horribly, we were literally able to pull the trap arm out. The third one was crazy, I went to the roof to check if the long test ball was still doing its job and when I touched the vent terminal pipe, I saw the whole pipe jump up as well as the stink mat and the rocks that surrounded the base. The whole system lost pressure from that. We loosened the mat and it turns out that it was not even welded to the fitting, some roofer just put that pipe on and no one noticed anything. We were able to pull it out and actually weld it but if nobody was up there to witness that, then that would have never been found as the tarp, roof rocks and stink mat were covering up the joint that wasn't even welded. Still trying to find leaks even now, lol.

June 2nd, 2025
Coming soon to Alberta yet again...

Things have been alright. Going on vacation to Alberta soon, its going to be very fun but I am not looking forward to that feeling of returning and having to go back to work. I need to learn to properly enjoy breaks here and there without a complete idolization of it. Things will get easier.

I am going to Edmonton and doing a bunch of stuff in that city with family and probably seeing Banff and maybe even stop by Calgary as well. I am so excited to see Banff, it'll envoke some of that meglophobia feelings that people talk about online. Its a good and humbling thing to be confronted with how microscopic we are in the big picture.

I need to embrace the labor of my toil, when you do this, you see the righteousness in God permitting the sweat on our brow.

MAY 2025

May 26th, 2025
SPORTS

I should start playing sports again. On the sabbath I was able to play soccer with some people from my church which was surprising very fun. I had not properly played soccer in probably about 10 years. I realized that I missed out so much by not playing sports when growing up. It is a great exercise of being able to make quick decisions, run around, teamwork, strategy and much more. It would have been a very great thing for me.

I spent the vast majority of my adolecense inside on a computer. Sometimes in the summer I would go on bike rides or ride scooters with my friends. One time I was making new friends, people a year older, I was going on bike rides with them frequently one beautiful summer long ago. Then I started to want computer time more than that, so when they would come to my door, I would begin to decline. They came a few more times after that but I would say no and retreat to my little cove with my comfortable wallpaper engine gaming PC, and play video games and browse YouTube from the moment I woke up with quick little breaks throughout the day. They eventually stopped coming and that was a grand opportunity missed. Sometimes in my life, in the moments where I wished I teleported to a bed and I could just lay for as long as I wanted, I think of the thousands of hours I spent over the years in a virtual paradise, with nothing in life to work about. It felt like it never happened when contrasted with the present.

People who live in the ignorance that the afterlife is ideal to exactly what they want are in the exact same boat as those as those who believe in no afterlife at all. They both life under the same presupposition, that their choices in life all ultimately lead to the same place. You live however you want and in your mind, it doesn't matter how hedonistically you live. I watched a movie a few weeks ago called Dont Look Up, a movie about a meteor hitting the earth. Near the end, moments before the world is ending, there is a birds eye scene from a rooftop where you can faintly see a bunch of naked people in the distance all having one big orgy. That was such a disturbing and shocking thing to picture, in the essense of human nature, in the moments before judgement, grasping for pleasure, being reduced to a piece of meat. Very scary. Your actions have objective consequences and none of us are able to not do that on our own, we need God.

I am trying to find a cloud hosting platform for free where I can upload all the images and videos of this website. I want to add a library type of section soon full of a bunch of content, I have so many videos I want to show you all!

May 24th, 2025
Stunning leafs victory, Youtube complaining...

I had a stable week. At my work, I have been a labourer helping an apprentice and a licensed plumber put together a piping system for a large chiller and a cooling tower supplying a 20ish story building. It looks pretty complicated but isn't too bad when you have someone explain it to you. For the indoor piping we are using 6" steel pipe, for the outdoors we are using 6" PVC, for the drains throughout the system, we are using 3/4" Heliopex and for the venting, we are using 3/4" and 2" black iron pipe.


For all the 6" steel piping, we are using groove coupling which are quite fun to work with because of how convenient it is and for the outdoors, we are just solvent welding 6" PVC together which is very messy and very easy to mess up. You have to put primer and then the solvent itself on both points fast enough before the solvent starts to dry and push hard enough that there is proper engagement. Learning a lot, maybe I am setting the bar too high for what I should be doing and knowing as a labourer, it is alright to not know absolutely everything. I just need to work hard and learn over time.

The leafs lost big time this week, it was almost unreal how quickly everything derailed for them. First period was normal, nothing happened, and then in the second, within the span of 5 minutes, florida managed to score like 3 goals. I heard a story from someone who was camping with friends on the weekend of this game 7, his friend who was a big leafs fan was fidgeting with the refresh button for the score of the game at the campsite and then decided to go to a sports bar to watch the game there. In the span of 5 minutes when he was driving to the bar, the 5 minutes he was not checking the score, it was over and done. Apparently they have done this many times in the past. I am very new to watching any sport and being a leafs fan at all, so the rapid cycle of hype and disappointment will take a while to get used to.

They are a good team, they just really wanted to start playing golf and enjoying their summer asap rather than trying. The other team was more of a team and actually wanted to win more. They did not lay it on the line. The final score of that game was such a silly thing to see, fans throwing their jerseys on the ice. With all this uncertainty in mind for the leafs, NEXT YEAR IS OUR YEAR! GO LEAFS GO!

With working so much, I have found the time and headspace to actually be passionate about this website and I am so glad that I actually want to be adding to this in my free time rather than only wanting to eat junk and watch internet horror videos on youtube. That site is such an abomination, I hate seeing how much time i've wasted on it. There is too much interesting stuff on there, I need to appreciate what I can physically see, not the sludge that is recommended to me constantly, so intriguing that it sucks all my time away.

I did find this cool youtuber though that does this thing that is directly out of my teenage fantasties, stealth camping. He jumps into a bush by a busy intersection and makes a temporary little living space out of nothing, utilizing local businesses for washrooms and making dinner in this bush like its nothing. It would be so cool to do this, to sneak in the forest or in some place like this and camp overnight. I don't know how I would sleep though, I feel like uncertainty of what might happen while you are sleeping would keep me up. This guy made some other cool videos too, like sleeping in a parking garage and in the middle of a roundabout.

If you have some self control (unlike me), then feel free to enjoy some content only momentarily, like a little intermission before going back to actually living life.

May 23th, 2025
Old opinionated writing about gift giving and Christmas from Christmas 2024.
Might make a full article talking about this one day, probably next Christmas.

The materialism of Christmas has turned the holiday into a massive excuse to be ruthless in your spending habits and challenge how you personally give and receive presents and gifts of Christmas.

There is a selfishness that is inherently implanted in the psychology behind gift giving that few people come to realise. Let's imagine that one Christmas, when surrounded by family, you simply decide to not give any presents to anyone. What would follow? Well according to the presumed selflessness found in gift giving, no one would pay any attention to it, but this is not what would happen. What instead happens is jealousy and anger towards that person, they are seen as selfish and ungrateful. Why does this contradiction exist? Well in the very core of human nature is a need to sin, a desire. In our imperfection, we are unable to give gifts in an entirely selfless and pure heart, we can certainly make attempts towards reducing this selfishness in our heart, I would say through Jesus, which is the primary reason for Christmas ironically.

All of this to show that our gift giving which we all put on such a high pedestal is done in vain when not executed perfectly (it never is). Even if nothing comes out of this, we get little thoughts in our head that we bury that say otherwise. A coworker at work one time was annoyed at having to deal with Christmas as a holiday because of the familial drama that comes with it, her family arguing over whose present cost the most and all the little semantics that comes with that.

Is this worth it? No. Is this our primary focus? Absolutely. Is this bad? Yes. Like all we do, all the time

May 12, 2025
Party, Leafs, AMOT

A Messenger Of Truth is possibly the best Christian content creator that I've found, he has this great ability of giving a proper godly perspective of all things, constantly using scripture for all his points instead of using his own words to make points. All videos are on ongoing events and new things and brings an honest biblical way of thinking of it. He doesnt try to resort to random hypothetical arguments for Gods sake but always resorts to scripture exactly in its context. Its been great help in showing how I should talk about the bible and God to others, not trying to misrepresent things in order to make people more comfortable with how God presents Himself in His word, but trying to show His holiness as the first and top priority. God can't just he this comfortable little spiritual being, He is holy holy holy. I would very highly recommend this youtuber, don't waste too much time though, that doesn't help with anything. His advocation for annihilationalism makes a lot of sense and is convincing but I'm not too sure about the other soul sleep stuff, I really don't know.

Weekend was good, went to a friends friends random house in the next town over with a bunch of people from high school but a grade lower. It was pretty fun but these party settings don't feel the same as they used to before, feels different. It just feels so selfish at times. I like the night atmosphere though, I was supposed to leave around 1 to wake up for my Saturday job at 7 but they didn't leave until like 2-3 so I got very little sleep.

That went alright, I dropped a whole stack of plates right in the morning but other than that, it was usual work. Spent the rest of the day relaxing, wasting time on YouTube and eventually getting around to working on the website. Its very fun, I feel like I never have enough time to do it though, I'm not too picky on aesthetics and stuff, just have preferences and will try to poke at changes when there's time.

Sunday was so wonderfully restful, watched the leafs game with a bunch of people from my church in the evening. There was way too much food at the party meaning I ate way too much. The game wasn't very fun to watch, just dissapointing. I feel bad for leafs fans that have been waiting decades for one win only to be let down once again, we will see what happens. I only really watch the playoffs and have been pretty into it this year, it's nice to have a game on in the backround with a laptop on your lap, having a few hours to do some hobbies.

May 1-6, 2025
General Update Following School

God is great. I have found a plumbing labour job in the midst of economic uncertainty, I can finally work hard towards something that leads somewhere. I am done school and just finishing up my gas course now, I have a final governmental exam next week and start my new job on monday. Please forgive my lack of contributions, allow for a few weeks of adjustment and I will hopefully be adding lots of content to this website. The saddest sight of a personal website is seeing the last post being made several months ago, we have all this free time, so why wasn't anything added?

Started the job. The Lord is good. I am all done school. I over-studied for the governmental exam I had. The people that came in just to watch us write the exam were very strict and strange people. You are only allowed very specific things on your desk and it is such a specific process just to begin writing the test. You can only use the spare paper they provide you in a sealed envelope, and if you don't put it back in the envelope when you are done, it is considered a criminal offense. We get like 3 hours to write the thing and they kept telling us to go to the bathroom before we write the test.

I'm a labourer in the construction of a massive apartment building. It is very easy to get lost, the basement level is like a labyrinth. Its a good job and I'm learning a lot but it is like a 35-40 minute drive from my home which is the biggest downside. I just want to advance to something and now I can hopefully do that with this job.

The hours are pretty long but I'm usually home at around 6 and have the rest of the night to not worry about other schooling or other things, since I am all done with that for now. a big relief.

I get every other Friday off, so on Friday morning I did my own oil change again, its all a pretty fun process. My dad doesn't think its worth the money difference which it might not be but I like knowing that I am doing it myself. After that I made lunch and by made lunch I mean that I mixed a bunch of different leftover pastas together and warmed it up in a pot. Later in the day I met up with another significant webmaster and was taught some CSS stuff, the website is going to see some quality of life appearance changes, I'll repeat this in madecodicil. I am also planning to switch domains from madecay.com to madecay.org as the cost is the same and I like the sound of it better. I was going to do madecay.ca but there was random extra legal stuff with that which I didn't want to deal with.